Who I Am
There is a place where words fall short, and I feel the most seen there....
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I have been called a catalytic volitionary.
Aka - a playful potent spark to ignite your empowerment and joy.
I know firsthand the depth of pain and suffering that can arise in this world - being "left" by both my mothers at age 10, leaning into drug addiction in high school, developing a 10 year dark dance with severe bulimia at age 20, and all the human coping patterns that arise when we live in a culture that's disembodied and inanimate. I was always seeking connection, and didn't know where to find it.
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But then that aching longing for connection to life itself finally, through honesty, maturity, and self acceptance, did lead me down a medicine path of communion with plants, becoming a life long student of embodiment, thwarted me into many studies of psychology and spirituality, and through the path of love, lead to to breathwork and earth based psychologies.
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All the while, I'm singing my songs and strumming that guitar, doing the only thing I knew how to do... share my heart with the world.
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So, why do I pursue this work? Perhaps in part, it arises from a deep boredom with the banality of a surface-level existence filled with small talk of weather and politics. But ultimately, it is my own dis-ease that drove me to seek answers, to ask the questions that would forever alter my life's course. After eight years of severe bulimia, I came to learn lessons of strength, growth, and facing my own inner demons that I could never have imagined.
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Through self-discovery, vulnerability, and communication, I came to understand that my story was not unique. Countless others have navigated lives riddled with trauma, addiction, and dis-ease. And so, I have chosen to share my story, to remind others that change is indeed possible.
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As I traverse this winding path towards wholeness, I carry with me a sense of joy wherever I go, and I am equally comfortable in the darkest depths of the psyche. I cherish the virtues of truth, creativity, and a love that imbues all things. I am a seeker of truth, an edge-walker, a being of two worlds, here to serve, share, and support, with a gentle open hand and a welcoming smile.
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May we journey together towards a place of healing and unity.​
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My Journey into Wholeness:
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It is no easy task to trace the beginnings of my journey towards wholeness, but perhaps such a quest is ultimately irrelevant in the face of the present moment where we now meet.
As I contemplate the path that brought me here, what stands out most prominently is the singular force that propelled me forward: love.
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My work is a natural extension of my life, born of a deep yearning for psycho-somatic-spiritual healing that could not be fulfilled by any other means. I grew up with no spiritual influence (which was a gift in many ways) but from a young age, I longed for a deeper animate communion with life that was no where to be found.
I became my own support system, my own mystical story teller and , transforming my pain into a potent elixir of medicine. We all undertake such alchemy in our own ways, transmuting our struggles into a path of healing.
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My own path was one of suffering and adversity - a life of self-raising that birthed habits of self-sabotage in the form of eating disorders and alcoholism. You know, the kind of things that incredibly under-advised teenagers run straight into in the lowly search for belonging.
Yet it was the rugged terrain of that hard road that ultimately led me to a path of love. To the path of learning that no matter what happened, life was just a web of relationships. And in truth, all paths that lead us to our centers are but one, winding and circuitous, yet inevitably leading us back to the heart of ourselves.
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